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cheers for fears
ask google if you should fuck me

ask google if you should fuck me


I guess I just get so mad and so angry and so upset that no one seems to care about mental illness until it kills someone.

Where are the walks for depression or bipolar disorder? Where are the bake sales for schizophrenia?

Where is the community support for people dealing with mental illnesses?

Because I can’t find it, and I think it’s because it doesn’t exist.

literally why it’s hard to b on tumblr rn

literally the reason it’s hard to b on tumblr rn

literally the reason it’s hard to b on tumblr rn

can we all just agree to go back to bed today

"The capability of [conventional] education to minimize or annul the students’ creative power and to stimulate their credulity serves the interest of the oppressors, who care neither to have the world revealed nor see it transformed."
— Paulo Freire, Pedagogy of the Oppressed
The interests of the oppressors lie in “changing the consciousness of the oppressed, not the situation which oppresses them” (Simone de Beauvoir); the more we can be led to adapt to that situation, the more easily we can be dominated. (via interstellar-soviet)

What were the protesters in Ferguson actually protesting on Sunday night? More than the death of an innocent black man, they were protesting the very disposability of the Black Body. The disposition of ‘ontological death’, meaning what constitutes a ‘full person’ (by any interpretation) is not recognized in the black population of America by the prevailing social institutions. So little significance does the Black Body hold that the media would rather talk about broken windows and burned out corner stores than the death of a living, breathing, human being.

The murder of Michael Brown was not a coincidence nor is it unrelated in the scope of American history. It must be contextualized in a long and ongoing lineage of violence against the Black Body and specifically that national oppression of Black peoples which works on behalf of the racist white supremacist capitalism of the United States. Michael Brown wasn’t the first innocent Black man to be murdered by racist pigs and he won’t be the last if we cannot change the course of the future.

There is a war being waged right now against the most basic existence of an entire population, and it’s happening on your street. The systemic oppression of the black population is integral to the very development of the United States as has been observed historically. Black people were and still are the free labor, they were and still are the most poor and vulnerable, they were and still are the ‘societal excess’ by which every ‘symptom’ of capital accumulation could be blamed upon. The war against the Black community is an ‘American war’ in the most authentic sense of the phrase.

u unfollow me but i get stronger regadless


theres nothing you can do

Why functioning labels for schizophrenia-spectrum disorders are ableist


I was inspired by this post about Autistic people and functioning labels, and my own experiences being labeled a “high-functioning schizophrenic/schizoaffective” (my diagnosis was just recently changed to SZA) and I wanted to just make a guide for what to say to a person when they come out as having schizophrenia, schizophreniform disorder, schizoaffective disorder, or really anything under the schizophrenia umbrella (or I guess this could be extended to any form of chronic psychosis, or even intermittent psychosis like is sometimes seen in bipolar disorder.)  

When somebody comes out to you as having a psychotic disorder, it often is seen as a sign of trust to some degree, due to the immense stigma associated with psychosis. So you have to be really careful with how you tread in the conversation following their “coming out” as having psychosis! 

The number one thing I have a problem with, as a person with schizoaffective disorder, when I “come out,” is people dismissing me because I’m so “high functioning.” I even had one person, at least, question my diagnosis, because of my cognitive abilities, and my ability to hide my symptoms so well (I had to hide them because my voices told me to, but that’s another story.) 


It’s okay to be surprised, and tell the person that you’re surprised. It’s a lot of news to hear. Schizophrenia-spectrum disorders are often a large portion of a person’s life, and for them to decide to share that with you is a big deal for both of you! 

But don’t tell them that you’re surprised, because of their functioning levels, or because they didn’t seem SZ-spectrum. 

Because that means that you have a preconceived notion of what a schizophrenic looks and acts like. 

People with schizophrenia-spectrum disorders have a wide range of IQ’s, multiple intelligences, interests, personality types, sexual orientations, and talents. WE’RE HUMAN BEINGS. There’s going to be variety in our group by default- people in general are varied. You have people on the schizophrenia-spectrum who are mathematicians, actors, models, socialites, scientists, musicians, artists, activists, and more. Many of whom are very successful. 

But this does not mean they are “high-functioning.” Why? Because 1. This implies that everyone is at the same functioning level all the time, and 2. It implies that there is such a thing as “low-functioning,” which leads to stereotypes of people with SZ-spectrum disorders. 

I appear “high-functioning.” I can carry on a conversation without talking about my delusions. I know not to talk to my hallucinations in public when I have them, or at least to pretend that I’m on the phone when I do talk to them, so at least I appear neurotypical. I enjoy social situations. I generally have appropriate affect. 

But this isn’t me all the time. I go through periods where all I can think about are my delusions, and have to fight to keep conversations off-topic, to hide my struggles. I go through times when I am tortured by hallucinations, unable to focus at all. I have catatonic episodes. I have a thought disorder that used to act up fairly often. I used to have severely inappropriate affect. 

Calling me “high-functioning” erases all those struggles that I face. I have been hospitalized. I have to take medication to function this “highly.” 

Also, like I said, calling somebody “low-functioning” means that they fit some sort of stereotype of people on the schizophrenia spectrum. It turns them into a caricature. It takes away their individuality, and reduces them to their disorder. Explain their individual symptoms. If they have more acute symptoms than most people, fine, say that. Grant them basic humanity. Don’t just reduce them to a label. Say that they’re a “catatonic person with schizophrenia and thought disorders”. That explains them so. much. better. than just slapping a functioning label on them. 

Plus, would you go up to a person who just came out as having OCD, “You don’t seem to be bothered *all that much* by your intrusive thoughts!*” or something like that? No. It makes you seem like a bit of a mind-reader, when in reality you don’t know what that person has to go through every day to seem so “high-functioning.” An even worse thing to say to a person who just came out as having OCD would be, “But your room is so messy!” when OCD isn’t even about cleanliness. It creates stereotypes about the disorder that are generally inaccurate. So why should people with SZ-spectrum disorders have to put up with stereotyping either? 

So yeah. Mini rant over. So now you know, if anyone ever comes out to you as having a disorder like this, this is how you shouldn’t respond, and why. 

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"Ernest Hemingway
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B.S Johnson
Sarah Kane
Sylvia Plath
Virginia Woolf
Kurt Cobain
Don Cornelius
Anne Sexton
Ian Curtis
Sid Vicious
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John Berryman
Marilyn Monroe
Freddy E
Robert E. Howard
Alexandre McQueen
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(via the-absentminded)

tiny reminder not to glamorize suicide

tiny reminder that suicidal ideation affects the biggest and best of us

tiny reminder that it devastates the people you leave behind